One of My Favorite Couples

All of my wildest dreams of love and romance are coming true...
for nick lachey and vanessa minnillo.

I'll Get Over It

no matter how mature you think you've become;
no matter how strong the fences you've erected;
the piercing impact of gettin a blow of the [mthafkn] truth
never, ever
loses its potency.

Plans

I like to think that I can live by improvisation; but for the most part, I’m a planner. A list maker. I dream, forecast, and anticipate all that God has in store for me. What makes life so great right now, is that the next year is so unpredictable.

And why is that?

I’ve successfully completed the Graduate Requisite Exam. And let’s use the word ‘successful’ flexibly. Successful meaning: it’s done, over with, and I will no longer have to forego my lunch hour at work to study the ratio of an isosceles right triangle (thank you Kaplan study guide). It’s over. I now have numbers to fill in boxes on graduate school applications.

Is my mind fully set on grad school? No. But it’s an option. And if there’s one thing I love about life, it’s the multitude of opportunities that we are given to experience something different.

Is my mind fully set on sticking with my current career, and continuing my climb up the corporate ladder? No. But the income is there, and I am satisfied for the time being.

Is my mind fully set on packing up and leaving for England permanently? No. But that’s why I’m going to London for the next few weeks – alone - to see if I can really do it on my own (less the nurturing staff at UCL, and less my roommates). I’ll be sure to let you know how that one goes.

So I guess that answers the questions that many of you have asked me over the past several months. Why? Why go to grad school when it’s not required of you? Why leave a promising career? Why not stay in California?

Because… I’ve just never desired to be a person without options; with no alternatives. I’m a lifetime learner. I’m a lifetime developer. Innovator. Experimenter. Explorer. And God has yet to give me a reason to stay.

When Lamar (a good friend and coworker of mine) found out that I was toying with the idea of leaving the company, he stated, “If it don’t make no money, it don’t make no sense.”

To which I replied, “Did you just quote Tupac?”

But for me, it’s never been about the money. Okay, that’s a lie. I’m not that profound. But really, money can only satisfy you to a certain degree. You really need to be doing what you love to do.

Right now, I love what I do. But who’s to say that I’ll love it three months down the line? I can plan all I want, but my emotions and my desires are completely, without a doubt, unpredictable.

Wistful

It’s this type of weather – rain, lightning, thunder – that for some odd reason, successfully manages to access and procure the most nostalgic of my emotions. Perhaps it’s why I love autumn so much; it’s something in the crisp air that leaves a wistful desire, a sentimental yearning, for me to embrace the memory of a former time in my life.

The Departed

Has a movie ever left you with a bewildering aftertaste? This one did. I walked out of the theatre thinking, "what just happened?" If you love action, violence, blood, guns, plot twists, and Leonardo DiCaprio, you have got to see this movie.

Once you get past all of the r-rated vocabulary, you can truly appreciate the genius that is Martin Scorsese. Bonus points go to Leonardo; his acting was delightfully pure, and flat out fantastic. I can't believe I've gone by these past few years without appreciating how unbelievably gorgeous that man is. Matt Damon was damn good too - enough to make me even hate him a little bit for being such a good bad boy.


Photo: Screen Cap of The Departed


Photo: Screen Cap of The Departed

Katie Holmes in Style

Photo: Casually classy.

Photo: Spending time with Victoria Beckham pays.

October

First, how in the world is it October already? September flew by like no one's business! Not that I'm complaining (it was a very good month) because there's so much in store for the next couple of weeks, and I don't know how I'm to contain all of my excitement!

Holiday season is almost here, and I'm sure that it'll pass just as quickly as the rest of the year. In the interim, I'll be making most of my time by trying my best to watch my fave shows on TV (I am so not going to pretend as though I'm too cool to watch TV. I'm just 'okay'.)

Tentative schedule is as follows:

Sunday
08:00 Extreme Makeover Home Edition (ABC)
09:00 Desperate Housewives (ABC) or Cold Case (CBS)
10:00 Without a Trace (CBS)

Monday
08:00 Prison Break (Fox)
09:00 Heroes (NBC)
10:00 What about Brian (ABC)

Tuesday
08:00 House (Fox) or Gilmore Girls (CW)
10:00 Law and Order (NBC)

Wednesday
09:00 One Tree Hill (CW)
10:00 Lost (ABC)

Thursday
08:00 Smallville (CW)
09:00 Grey's Anatomy (ABC) or The OC (Fox)

Last but not least... I take pride in the fact that I never say things I don't mean. I don't say I love you if I don't love you. I don't say yes when I mean no. And when I say I'm going to announce my next big trip, I'm really gonna go. So with that said, and the ticket purchased... I'm bringin sexy back to London this month (and next)!

I waited and debated on buying my ticket, but I finally coughed up a pretty penny to reunite with my one true love: Big Ben. What else am I working so hard for, if not to splurge a lot on myself? Carpe diem guys, I stay true to my mantra... you only live once.

I'm counting down the days.